Flashback

As I was physically travelling back home, I myself was at the time warp, wandering under the memory lane back in 2003. I would not have any idea what lies ahead as I try to uncover some answers as to what I am right now and on what I have become. It surprises me that it is much easier for me now to look back on things and what happened then. Was it a closure this time? I myself don’t know…I was deliberately happy to reminisce on the part-- And my world stops as soon as he spins me on our very first dance under the moonlight wearing just my pajama and not a flowing dress. It was overwhelming for me, I believe I was not emotionally and psychologically ready for this, it feels like it was happening again, it is surreal and again I felt like a princess on a fairytale. But my smile fade instantly knowing that deep down it would only become a very special memory and no chance will it happen again for he had become somebody else’s dream… now it is clear that the moment we decided to part ways and ended whatever we had: my life, my heart and my dreams dies with him. Will it ever live again? Maybe on different light-years or another life time, but right now I need to climb out from the black hole which I reside for the past six years…