Exnihilate

Unstable… that was the right term at the very moment you saw me. And I was amazed on how you try to pick me up then little by little you put me in to pieces. As my world continue to close in, and the darkness is engulfing my very last breath, you came to save me, giving your very best to revive me. When my world crumbles you where there every step of the way becoming my knight and yes you are shining… I was amazed by how you swiftly came to my life and how fast I believed in you. Then I felt like I was whole again. Never did I anticipate that you will also be gone in just a brief motion. I guess it was neither just a chance that you are there at the right time but never an option for you nor your choice to stay with me. I can’t comprehend the magnitude of losing you by my side... so I try to fight back; I try to push through the pain, then I realized the more I try to get near you, the farther you go away from me… I can’t take another step, because I know one more step and I will be walking away. So I keep still then close my eyes, and there I can feel you, I can see you in front of me. With this serenity and a guarantee to be with you, I decided to stay here in the dark, it may be frightening but at least there is hope. And so my world starts crumbling again, the darkness begins to engulf me as the walls are closing in, I was self destructive and I am breaking in to pieces, in painful doubt I wait for you to fly underneath me to save me, and you never came, I can’t wait any longer, as I take my last breath, I think I have to save myself, then again I realized I was… unstable